The Lord giveth and the Lord takes away

My life is a daily reminder of how fleeting our time here on earth is...truly we are like blades of grass, here for a brief season. Every few weeks, I am awakened in the middle of the night by the sound of Jerry struggling to breath. This occurred again, just a couple of nights ago. I do not know what causes these events. I must immediately pull him to a sitting position and try to calm him enough in his fearful struggle to get him breathing again. Like the seizures, this comes with no warning, and always cause my heart to stop for a moment. Like the seizures, this affect his breathing, and always make me wonder, if just for a brief moment, is this the hour that the Lord is calling his name. Jason's death has taught me that I have no control over this life, my life is not my own, and I am learning to say "the Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away, blessed be the name of the Lord". Each of these frightening events reminds me once again, that our lives are like a vapor, here one moment, gone the next. What comfort I find in scripture where we are assured over and over that this life is fleeting, but we have the promise of eternal life through our faith in Jesus. I could not live with out this hope, I could not rest with out His promises. So I am learning to live one day at a time. I am learning to be thankful for each day, for the gifts of love and laughter and kindness and thoughtfulness that come my way through those around me. I will no longer spend precious moments worrying about tomorrow, for I know it is not promised and may never come. This journey teaches me new things everyday, and I pray they are preparing me for that which is eternal.....for it is all that really matters.