Another Easter on earth....He is risen!!!

This is our second Easter since Jason died, our sixth since Jerry's illness. I find myself changing..day by day, month by month. year by year. When Jason first died, all I could think about was the time when I would join him and be free from the sorrows of this life. I think this is very common for believing Mom's who have lost a child. But as time passes, I realize that God has a divine purpose for my life and I am content to seek His wisdom and His plan. I find myself desiring to know Jesus, really, really know him. I am no longer content to know of him or know about him....I want to know HIM. When Jason died, all I could think about was seeing him once again when the Lord called my name. Now, while my heart still leaps at the thought of seeing Jason once again, it is the face of Jesus that I long to see, the voice of the master that I long to hear. There is the longing to just know Him that has replaced much of the sorrow , a genuine desire to know His heart that has replaced the anxiety. As my love for Him grows it fills my soul with his peace. It is an on going process, to be sure, but I am beginning to see His purpose in this journey and I know that there is coming a day when I shall see Him face to face. Until that time, I can say this without any reservations...I know that my redeemer lives and I know the joy of my salvation. So, praise God, I will spend another Easter here on earth, rejoicing in greatest gift I have ever received....the gift of God's own son. And I shout with all the other saints of God from every corner of the earth....He is risen....praise God...He is risen!!!!!